Surgery

Had my surgery.
I went with the lumpectomy.
All went well.
Had to stay 5 days.
Got out today, am tired, sore, crushed....my spirits are low, very low.

I met a few women who really touched me.

R. with cervical cancer. So scared. Found out she will need chemo. Terrified. I told her that she will be fine.

I. breast cancer. Like me she wanted a mastectomy but Docs convinced her of lumpectomy. They didn't get it all the first round. She had to stay and get another surgery, this time mastectomy.

I wish I could help. I wish I could make these women healthy, or at least feel better. I am angry. I am disappointed and cannot even say why.

This time I did not want anybody-aside from family-to visit. I get irritated with the looks, the "ohhh you poor thing" looks. I am not poor. I am not little. It is a horribly ugly thing, but not the end....which is why I don't want to be treated this way.

Dr. S. the surgeon is happy with the wound, I think it is ugly and I don't feel a thing on my right side. What a prospect!