It is just radiation...

So it is the second week of radiation and I am exhausted.

The doctors say it is fatigue and begins normally about 3 or so weeks after treatment starts, but I am exhausted and I have this cough-the cold weather they say.

I am exhausted of going there every day!

I am exhausted of Doctors telling me that my exhaustion, pains, coughs...(fill in any ailment you like) has nothing to do with the treatment I am receiving!

I am exhausted from being sick!

I am exhausted fromworrying!

I am exhausted from looking into the mirror and seeing sickness!

I am exhausted from it all!

I will continue with treatment and finish it, but I just felt like complaining because when anybody asks me how I am doing I say "Fine! It is JUST radiation! Chemo is a lot worse!". While that is true, chemotherapy is worse, there is no "just" about radiation. It is difficult. It is hard. And I struggle. But this is the only place that I will admit it. Why? Because I don't like to show it when I am weak...

~Lot of love on this cold autumn day! H.