Tomorrow it begins

I am going back to work tomorrow-I have had panic attacks for a week now!

Let's hope it turns out to be a lot easier than I am thinking!

Normality and fitness

Normal is a strange word.

What's normal for me is most certainly not normal for you and the other way around.

When I found a lump in breast a year and 4 days ago I was living a "normal" life. I went to work every day. I went running every day. I was way into healthy living, nutrition, sports. M. and I went on bike tours every weekend. M. and I cooked every night....Life was normal.

Then the cancer came. Chemo, surgery, pain, nausea, dizziness, fear, exhaustion, sadness...all that became normal.

Now, we are done with treatments, life is "normal", I have started running again, do yoga all the time, eat healthy, but I have a very different perspective than I did 12 months ago, what was normal then is not normal today and what is normal today would have NEVER been normal then.

I could ramble on forever, what I am trying to say is that I am a changed person...whatever that means.

-H.

No Valentine's day for me!

M. and I have decided that we will not celebrate Vday!

Well the truth is that I decided that and here is why:

1. We celebrate our love everyday.

2. Last year, right as I was getting ready for our Valentine's day dinner, I discovered a lump in my right breast. This lump turned out to be cancer and has changed my life forever. While there are a lot of good changes that came about I just don't feel like celebrating when all I can think off is how I first felt that lump.

Just thought I'd share!

Rehab is over

After prolonging my rehab for a week I am done.

Did it help anything? To be honest I am not sure. I found out new things that I was not aware off. I learned that my blood is still pretty messed up. I learned that I am fitter than I maybe thought.

What will I take home from it?

That only I can make time for me. That I have to take care of myself. That I can do a lot to feel better.

Lots of love!

-H.