I am so tired. So tired of feeling worried. So tired of explaining. So tired of the surprise on people's face when I say "I have/had breast cancer. I was 27 when I was diagnosed". . I am tired of people pretending like everything is fine...
What you-though chances are I do not mean YOU-may not understand is how much this has changed! What does "normal" mean?? Is it normal that I worry, that I have panic attacks everyday, that my energy levels are that of a 60 year old woman, that I have acute risk for osteoporoses, that my brain is mushed, that my bones hurt all the time, that I have headaches...the list goes on and on and on! All I am trying to say that nothing in my life is normal, normal would be to feel like a healthy 28 year old, instead I feel like an old 50 year old!
Of course, life goes on, and I will continue to answer "ok" when people ask me how I am doing, because that is what I do!
Lots of love, have an amazing weekend!!!
-H.
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